At Home

And so, with no pomp or circumstance whatsoever, it came to an end. A mundane call just before six o'clock in the morning, a simple handover to the crew, and a slightly solemn and very lonely drive back to station. I don't know what I was expecting or hoping for.

Almost five years ago, I started it for the first time. It lasted 6 months, and I hated almost every minute of it. I stuck at it because it was challenging and different, but I still couldn't stand it. At the end of the allocated half-dozen moons, you couldn't see me for dust in my haste to get away. Maybe I was just too young and inexperienced, maybe I was just lacking in confidence. Whatever it was, I was pleased it was over.

Almost two years ago, through lack of choice and with fear and trepidation, I went back to it. Last week it came to a halt, again through no choice of my own. My time on the FRU, the single-manned (personed) Fast Response Unit, has ended. All the things I hated about it the first time round, I loved this time, and I will sorely miss. I guess I'd grown up a little in the interim, and eventually started to feel at home in the FRU.

The most appealing is the challenge of having to think on your own, often for extended periods of time, and sometimes with very ill patients.

Starting a resus on your own and having to carry it out with no back-up for quarter of an hour.

Managing the asthmatic patient who's deteriorating before your very eyes.

Relieving the pain in the elderly patient who's fallen and fractured their hip.

And being unable to transport any of them.

Delivering a baby and praying for it to take its first breath.

Supporting the dislocated shoulder of a brave kid and watching them get drunk on entonox.

Sticking a plaster, or a band-aid, depending on where you are, on an adult who's behaving like a spoilt child.

And telling him so.

Being the first at the scene of a suicide attempt, working hard to save a life, only to see the patient whisked off in the ambulance or the helicopter, and staying at the scene filling in paperwork.

Being the first at the scene of a fatal accident, and having to call it before anyone else even turns up.

Being the first at the scene of a cardiac arrest, a terminally ill cancer patient, and grieving with the family.

And being left alone with your thoughts and a cup of coffee.

Travelling with a crew and them hating you for pulling rank.

Travelling with a crew and them loving you for pulling rank.

Travelling with a crew and the patient thanking you all. Together.

And having to justify it all. To control, to the crew, to the patient, to yourself.

Now, it's back to a mix of real ambulances and a few FRU shifts, but it won't be my car.

It'll be nice to have someone to share with, someone who I can look at over my shoulder when I'm unsure, and hopefully vice versa, someone to sing along to the radio with between and on the way to calls.

They say, whoever they are, that a change is as good as a holiday. Truth is, I could really do with one right now. It's just that I'll miss being at home.

Who'd have thought it?

Fishmedic

Blogsphere is an amazing place.

First, I started reading blogs.

Then I started following them.

Then, twice, I started writing them.

After a while I made contact with some other writers.

Whilst some of these writers decided to meet each other on opposite sides of the Atlantic.

Finally, this week, I had my own meeting with an overseas blogger/paramedic.

Fishmedic, AKA Sam, a paramedic and blogger from Germany, decided that on his short visit to London, he'd like to see a little of the whats, whys, wherefores and hows of the London Ambulance Service, at least as I see and experience them.

Through the wonders of social media and other forms of communication, a meeting at station was arranged.

So he came, he saw, he took photos (thankfully not with me in them), we talked.

And we drank coffee. When he asked for cream with his coffee, (in English that is better than most English people I know) I muttered something about this being the NHS, and that we can only afford milk.

Anyway, we compared notes and systems and were each shocked about things we see as lacking, and inspired by ideas we liked. It was entertaining, educational, eye-opening, and lots of other things beginning with the letter 'E'.

Chronicles of EMS - see what trouble you've caused!

Hmmmm, maybe that's an idea for the byline competition...

Stride

Each one of us has a system.

A line of questioning that we follow each and every time to get the answers we need.

Following the same method for each patient ensures not only consistency in our history-taking, but also in our treatment of the patients.

Personally, it guarantees that I have asked all the questions, at least the basic ones, to know where to start and which line of treatment is the most likely.

History taking involves everything from past medical problems, to current drug treatments, from the time of the last meal to bowel opening patterns, from sleeping patterns *ahem* to the actual current reason for calling the ambulance.

And then, there's pain related questions. Where is it?

How bad is it?

When did it start?

Does it move?

What were you doing when it started?

Does anything make it worse? Or better?

All in order. Need to keep my stride.

It's especially important towards the end of a night shift, and even more so towards the end of a set of nights.

My favourite pain-related question, probably because the answer is invariably "No", is "Have you taken anything for the pain?"

You know, any analgesia or anti-inflammatory stuff? Anything that might have helped you get the night's sleep that you're complaining you didn't get? I'm always a little bemused by people who go from having a pain that they can cope with straight through to excruciating-ambulance-required-immediately pain without going through the lets-take-some-tablets-and-see pain in the middle.

I digress. Must try to keep my stride.

The following is a true, if slightly shortened, recording of a recent conversation with a patient in pain.

InsomniacMedic: "When did the pain start?"

Patient in Pain: "About 12 hours ago". That would have been at the more tolerant and alert part of my shift.

IM: "And you haven't slept at all?"

PIP: "Not a minute."

IM: "Did you take anything for the pain?"

PIP: "Yes."

IM: "Can I see the tablets that you took?"

PIP: "It wasn't a tablet." Assuming that this patient can't swallow tablets, I presume it must be a liquid. Exasperation is slowly setting in.

IM: "Can I see the bottle then?"

PIP: "It wasn't a bottle." Exasperation is slowly being followed by the loss of will to live.

IM: "So what did you take for the pain then?"

PIP: "Coffee."

IM: "....................................."

All the training, all the working on a system, all the pre-planned questions, all down the toilet.

I mean, with answers like that, how is a guy supposed to keep his stride???

I think I need a drink.

And not necessarily a coffee.