Do you ever get that feeling?
You know,
the one where you've done everything possible,
done it to the best of your ability,
brought about a good result,
improved a condition that was rapidly deteriorating,
but nevertheless felt that something was lacking?
Yeah.
That feeling.
I did. Just the other day.
Now,
I just hope the kid's on the mend.
I couldn't have done any more.
The worst thing is,
that I'll never really know
why I had that feeling, or
what I should have done about it.
5 comments:
Oh, I know *exactly* how you feel. It happens to me on very regular basis. Maybe it's because I'm still new, I don't know. But the fretting is awful even though you *know* you gave it your all.
Don't you get that feeling about all your 'bad' jobs? The fact that you never know the outcome? Whether you actually made a difference?
Sometimes all we do isn't enough. But then, sometimes it is, and that is what keeps me coming back.
I get them often and I just have to remind myself that I did my best at the time and the rest is out of my hands or else I would go nuts. I am sure you gave the kid the best possible chances!!!
Are you able to follow up with the personnel at the hospital to discuss your lingering thoughts?
I worked in EMS prior to becoming a neonatal ICU nurse. While I do miss the prehospital autonomy, the good part of my current job is that there are tons of people to debrief with when I feel like something wasn't quite right.
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